It's the 30 out of the 45 pounds that I lost last year that I've gained back.
It's the inability to sleep more than a few hours a night.
It's the amount of time spent sedentary -- and by sedentary I don't mean just not moving. I mean not doing anything.
It's the sugar.
It's the headaches.
It's withdrawing from most social activity.
It's work related stress.
It's that this list is all related and the word that connects them is PASSIVE. I'm taking steps to go from passive to ACTIVE and to work on each of the above. Tackling that huge list all at once would guarantee failure. So small bits. First step is logging off here. I'll be back to let you know how it is going.
Well, let's see. You sold your home of many years, down-sized to a really cool and radically different place, lost your mom, and are dealing with a ton of stress. Hmmm. Not having your act together sounds normal given the circumstances, Joan. These are huge changes and stressors, and a little radical self-care is in order. You will get it back together, eventually. Just give yourself time.
ReplyDeletethanks Susan. One day at a time!
DeleteSusan makes a very strong argument. Also, your number 2 point probably has a lot to do with your number 3 point. Things will come back around in your favor. Just be kind to yourself, Joan. <3
ReplyDeleteWe are our own worst critics. Joan, you honestly amaze me in a great and good way. Thought you might just need to hear that.
ReplyDeleteJoan, I consider Susan one of my very dear friends, even though we've never met; even though, God forbid, she's a Duke fan and I am obviously not (my user name gives me away). She writes wise words; I know because she has written several to me, giving me strength and perspective during the past four years since my husband died. So take care of you, and allow yourself time, because I know the word you're looking for: grief. "Grief is not a disorder, a disease or a sign of weakness. It's an emotional, physical and spiritual necessity, the price you pay for love. The only cure for grief is to grieve." (Earl Grollman)
ReplyDeleteHugs - we are cheering you on! <3
ReplyDeleteIt will get better....I promise. Hugs.
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